My life right now is just not going the way I planned. Here is the deal: My store closed where I was living so I had to move to Raleigh. The company offered me a job there as an assistant mgr. So with my 15 yr. old daughter, I moved in with my boyfriend who lived in Raleigh, so I could take the job and be with him. He is separated from his wife and soon to be divorced. (I think). Anyway, job is great, things are going well.
After being here a month, my daughter wants to move back to be with all her friends. I am devastated. But I understand, and let her go live with her father. THEN..4 moths after living here...right before Christmas, my boyfriend tells me he wants to go back to his wife. So I quit my job, because I have no place to live here, and move back home. Two days later, the boyfriend changes his mind and wants me back. The whole time I was with him, he was talking to her and telling me it was because he felt sorry for her.
So I (like a fool), move back and beg for my job back. Which was humiliating. Got my job back but am now an extra manager. Sucks! Anyway, he tells me he, (my boyfriend), will only talk to her if it is an emergency. So I don't like it but I do try to understand. I know how scary it is to be on your own for the first time so I can sympathize with her. So now its 5 months from then and I find out he's having long conversations with her. Leading her on giving her false hope. Ok, after being confronted with that, he then calls her and tells her it is over and they can't be friends. So I, (like a fool), think, now its over and we can start our future. That was two weeks ago. But guess what? You guessed it! He's talking to her AGAIN!!!!! I give up! I don't need this bull shit!
Look at my profile pic. My body is even better. I treat him so fucking good. And what do I get? Lies and deception. And I deserve it. Know why? I stay. Well fuck that. I am done being the understanding dumb ass. I am quitting my job, and moving back home. I don't want to leave him because I love him and the home we have attempted to make. But I am sick of being lied too. Damn, make up your fucking mind! You know?
Also found out I have copd. So I am also quitting smoking.
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